Ugh. I really feel bad for how I have done this semester. This class was one of the most wonderful classes I have had, and I totally did not live up to it. I am late on multiple assignments, indeed, I just today realized that even some of the assignments, like this blog, that I had thought I was on time on, I am actually late. I had forgotten that Sunday was the due date, not Tuesday.
FML
More generarally I reflect on this class and my thoughts are conflicted. The educator in me loves many aspects of this class that did not appeal to me as a student. Dr. Brown did a wonderful job of using many media formats to engage the students. This is a wonderful method of reaching out to generation Y, which I technically can claim a part of. But I cannot help but think, when I am watching a movie, “I paid money for instruction, not to watch a movie.” In most classes where there are movies, I tend to think the movies are a way for the instructor to get away with not working. I do not think that of Dr. Brown. I have no doubt that he views the information in these movies is important, and organized in a better way than he could have organized it to meet the same objectives. I do not find those to be poor choices of movies. (Well, with the exception of the Kurtzweil movie, but that’s just because I think the man’s a loon.) I do not think I could present the material better, but when watching a movie I am always thinking “I could be DOING something now.” I could be using this time productively.
I think that argument would have much more weight if I actually was more productive otherwise.
Another aspect of the class that from an objective viewpoint was wonderful but did not meet my personal needs was these accursed blogs. Using these blogs is a wonderful way to keep students interested, and at the same time give them some experience using a content management system. It should be a fun activity and be an easy way to earn a few points.
For me, it was the part of the class I dreaded most every single week. Many weeks, I even neglected them altogether. I think much of my difficulty with these blogs is that I feel anything that I put out for public consumption must be perfect. This reflects on me, my honor, and to some extent the honor of my teachers and family. I hate putting up something that is unworthy, and yet have difficulty finding something that I feel worthy to put up here. Like with the scratch project, I would have been much happier to have emailed Dr. Brown a review of the class each week. I would have had some pressure to have reasonable document to turn in, but I would not feel the same preassure as I do here, publishing something I am required to let other students see, reguardless of wether I want them to have this information about me or not.
I really think that is my greatest objection in this class. A student, a person, has a right to privacy. On the internet and off, we have the right to keep our opinions to ourselves, or to make them public. A required public response makes this impossible. I would have preferred not to have my thoughts broadcast to the world, except where I choose. I would have preferred. It would have been easy in those blogs to simply have made something up, to have posted thoughts that were not my own. But that also feels wrong to me. So I was left with a decision, do I expose myself unwillingly to the world, do I lie, exposing only a facade, or do I do nothing and take a lower grade. I never made a decision on this, and in not making this decision, much of the decision was made for me. For many weeks, not making the decision caused nothing to be done, which forces a lower grade. I am going to complete these blogs now. They will be late. They might not even count. But I will complete them to show that I can. If you are reading them though. Do not expect to know if they are me or a facade. I still don’t know which way I will answer. All I know, is that as soon as I know that they have been read, or know that they will not be, I will delete them from the web, and prey to what gods may here that no copy exists without my consent. Since PSTCC blog AUP reserves the right to do so. The bastards.
But enough of the negative. This was an amazing class! I came into it with expectations of a boring class, going over information so elementary that I would want to sleep through it. What I found instead was a class that I wish was replicated across the world. Even the topics I was already somewhat familiar with were presented in a much more stable order, with much stronger links than i had ever seen before. I cannot count the number of people. This course alone has made me glad I am a PSTCC student. When I was a CS major at MTSU, there was no class like this one on their catalog. There was nothing that actually explained the basics of computing to the students. CS at MTSU was nothing but programming. The students might get their BS degree without knowing what a motherboard was. Without understanding how binary operates or without a clue to any of the social ramifications of technology. When I first saw the syllabus of this class I was blown away. From taking this class, I can tell that the quality of instructors at PSTCC is a step ahead of those I was used to at a four-year university. I believe that the students that come out of this program will be better prepared to go out into many different directions within IT and CS.
So finaly, I want to say to Dr. Brown, who I hope is the only person to read this, even if I cannot gaurentee it:
Thank You.
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