This week, as far as time goes, has been the craziest week ever.
We’re finally moving on in class to something I am actually good at, and something I actually like: HTML. But you wouldn’t have known that because again, for the third week in a row, I’ve been in all sorts of white rooms with very crinkle paper over the chair/lounger thingie you are supposed to sit on, being poked and prodded and ogled at like some sort of monkey test subject. As a result, I’ve had to miss a majority of my classes. I’m going to try and find a way for the insurance companies to pay my student loans off after this all blows over, I swear.
HTML is something I am very familiar with. When I was 14 years old I joined a web community, which at the time seemed very cool. Looking back www.melodramatic.com was a place for everyone who’s parents didn’t give them money for the Good Charlotte: Cut cut, stab stab, bleed, cry, and wear lots of eyeliner tour. (We’ve all got things in our past we regret.) But when I joined it was a simple blog site, and before you could edit your page you had to enter a certain number of entries, get enough friends and enough people to vote on your poll. So I spent hours taking quizzes, posting the results, spamming out people to take my poll (which at the time was “Who would win the fight? A.) Superman B.) Batman C.) Superman Icecream or D. Guano” Don’t ask me how I remember that,) and to generally be my friend.
After I unlocked the ability to decorate my page, I decked it out from head to toe. Generally because it was a “Goth/Emo” site, the pages were in mostly black with red or green as an accent color, but mine was a beautiful FF3399 background, box outlines in FFFF99, highlights and hover links in CC9900, to give it a luxurious, decadent Victoria’s Secret feel. And as I will remind the readers, I was 14 and thought Jude Law was God and that all men should wear eyeliner, I’m not proud of what I did, but there’s nothing I can do to change it now. At first I just used the color generator program that came with the site, you chose your color from a drop down color list and then specified where you wanted that color to be, and POOF! There it was. But, I craved something more. I started seeing pages that had glitter, and text that was all centered without caps and aligned to the right… It was magic! Some pages even had falling stars from the top of the page! It was beauty in it’s entirety and I was dying to find out how to make my page look like that. But, I knew nothing about it. I didn’t know how computers worked or software, I just knew that they did. To me it was the magic of the tape deck, the CD… it just poofed into existence and happened. That’s certainly not the case, but I digress.
So I became friends with a few people online and started asking them how to’s and looking up instructions online and finally after gathering as much information as I could, which for a 14 year old with an attention span not much lo—what? I started building my site decorum.
It was fabulous, as a misunderstood youth, I knew all about art, tragedy, and I assumed heart break since I cried myself to sleep at night known that Seth Green didn’t even know I existed, so my page transformed into a dark red background, white accents and gold “trimming” with black fluer de lis’s falling from the top of the page. When you hovered over a link it turned upside down, and I aligned everything center. After that I started coding for other pages, and created a “cult” which was the term given to a group, like a yahoo group, community, ect. Filled with my page designs, and I even encorporated HTML boxes with one click copy and paste below a screen shot of what the page would look like. Everyone started using them and In 2005 I was voted Miss Melo for my contributions to the site. It’s a great honor that to this day is the most impressive feat of strength.
If I truly felt like there was a calling in the world, and I’m sure there is, if you live in a hip, trendy metropolitan area, I would major in Web Design, but freelancery is not something I would feel good about. I quite enjoy having a steady paycheck (although after all this medical mayhem it’s not quite as steady as it was.) I enjoy creating. I love art. I would be an artist if I could, but again, you don’t get rich in that business until long after your dead and cut your ears off. I love computers, there’s lots of room to get rich there, but I have neither the patience nor desire to live a celibate life in my mother’s basement to go that route. But creating art with a computer, that’s truly a beautiful union. I could do that.
The problem I’m facing with my webpage right now, is that I’m wanting to do so much with it. And I can’t trim it down. It’s frustrating being put into a constraint. I hope it looks nice. I hope it works. I hope I can return to class. But as the old proverb goes “An HTML in the hand is worth two in the ‘Internal Application Error.’”